1.Know Your Name
You’re a cardboard sign 
You’re the back of the line
You’re a bratty little kid
You're "everybody knows what your mama did" 
You’re thrift store shoes
You’re makeup on a bruise
You’re the man at the checkout
You’re the one they talk about
But they don’t even know your name
They don’t even know your name
You’re the trouble you’re in
You’re the color of your skin
They got faith and you got a doubt
You fought a war they forgot about
They say don’t make a scene and don’t cause a fuss
Just go take your seat at the back of the bus
But they don’t even know your name
You know you’re a burning flame
You don’t have to play their game
Cause they don’t even know your name
You can’t swim in the deep end
You’re every other weekend
You told the truth, and no one heard
They wouldn’t listen to a single word
They say, stop making waves, learn to fall in line
And if anyone asks you say you’re doing fine
2.Walking for a Living
I been thinkin’ about walking for a living 
I been thinkin’ about hittin’ the open road 
It wouldn’t be a trick; I’d carve a walking stick 
And tread the fields o’ seed the farmer sowed 
I’d buy myself a gilded pair of sneakers 
Walk like butter, shine like gold 
And I would really glow; 
And everyone would know 
They’d talk about me after I went cold  
By now, I’d a thought I’d make the ground shake 
By now, I’d a thought I’d win the title belt 
Somehow, I find that most of my time’s spent 
Tryin’ to figure out how to play the hand I’m dealt  
I thought that I’d be gettin’ higher 
I thought that I’d a learned how to fly 
But now that I’m back on the solid ground, I’m startin’ to come around 
And I’m thinkin about walking for a  living.  
Thinkin’ about walking for a living  
Trumpets aren’t the smoothest thing you heard of Trumpets used to herald coming kings 
But soft and gently blown, they came into their own And lo, the gift the lowly jazzman brings 
And jazzmen were the ones you’d want to be with Jazzmen had a way of bein’ cool 
But everybody knows that heroin and blow 
Can turn a genius right into a fool  
It’s a nickel, it’s a dime, it’s one day at a time 
It’s hush now. Don’t shout. Talk about
Walking for a living. 
With or without the gold, it’s a fine way to grow old So, don’t doubt. Try not to pout, and think about Walking for a living. Thinking about walking for a living. 
3.One O’Clock
It’s one o’clock all could be well 
But no one can ever really tell  
When they are in the line of sight 
They might lie peaceful in their bed  
There isn’t even time to dread 
What may come crashing in the night  
And they can not cry hard enough 
No they can not cry hard enough 
To stop it now  
You think you know the gist of things 
Alarms will sound, a bell will ring 
Before you’re taken by surprise 
But it might be the calmest day 
Nothing feels like it’s astray 
And then you’re running for your life  
No you cannot cry hard enough 
Oh you cannot cry hard enough 
To stop it now  
You know that moment when you think 
This can’t be happening to me 
Just turn back time 
Make a quick retreat I’m sure we can change just one little thing  
The sky was blue the air was clear 
And you were still with us my dear 
Now we’ll mark it off year by year 
And it will mark us with the fear  
Well I can see you there in the garden 
Oh I still see you there in the garden 
Let’s go back, back to the garden 
Where things grow  
Maybe we’ll see clearly once we get off the battlefield 
Maybe we’ll see clearly 
4.You Showing Up Here
I’m not planning on calling you any time soon
I’m a whale who knows how to avoid a harpoon
I’m not planning to answer that question you asked
I’m a lone vigilante and I won’t be unmasked. 
And I’m not trying to get into anyone’s head
I’m a cop on a beat, and I don’t wanna end up dead
And if I don’t engage, then no one can say
That I did anything really all that bad today 
Everything’s fine until everything’s not
A standoff’s a standoff ‘til you fire a shot	 
And talk may be cheap but it buys you a lot
Until you face what you fear
I can do boredom, and I can do pain
I can do standing in lightning and rain
But I’ll tell you what really just drives me insane
Is the thought of you showing up here
Oh, the thought of you showing up here 
I don’t wanna break into your shop and steal your cash
You’re a volcano town and you’re covered in ash
I don’t wanna go down your road I know where it leads
It’s a Soviet satellite nobody needs 
This isn’t the moment to call my bluff
There’s still meat on the bone, and I haven’t had enough
There’s no point in testing me I’ve made it clear
There’s nothing left now that’s keeping me here  
5.We Made It Out
Remember when we used to go out riding  
We’d roam the fields pretend we were at war 
Now I don’t even know you anymore  
We’d dance on your bed and get in trouble 
We’d make the barn behind your house a store 
And we’d be best friends forever 
That was for sure  
Then you went your way and I went mine 
I went holy roller and you went wild 
I guess that’s what you do sometimes when you’re a child 
Don’t understand it 
Now I regret it  
But hey we made it  
Yeah we made it out 
We left those fireflies and hard times 
For fields to plough 
Oo  
I heard it through the grapevine ‘bout the car wreck They say you almost lost your mind 
But I didn’t show up or even write  
But you were like yourself at the reunion 
It even kinda felt just like old times 
Like we’d been best friends forever 
And all was right  
Then you went your way and I went mine 
Not much in common both hard to find 
No easy way to talk through what was left behind Back in the shadows we each had our battles   
6.Already Gone
Page by page of black and white cartoons 
I kept ‘em by my bed in a cardboard box 
I read ‘em one by one on summer afternoons Lonely upstairs with all the ticking clocks  
And you were elsewhere like you always were 
Until you tumbled in to make a scene 
And then you came in, raised your gavel up 
Ladies and gentlemen, let the court convene  
All these years, I been keeping it light 
Tryin’ to make it all right, put up a good fight 
But now I’m thinking that I knew all along about it And how that farewell that I wanted to come 
Was never gonna come. How could I have been so dumb? 
When I tried to find you, you were already gone  
Brick by brick, I found my own way to be 
To fashion something like a landing strip 
I always said you helped me get to my feet 
I never noticed how you tried to trip me  
Instead you tripped, yourself, and like a rolling wave 
You had to crash into the waiting shore 
And you just lay there, battered by the sea Completely spent and then you paid some more  
I saw you as a hero and a hero gets enshrined in a place on high 
So when I picked you up at destination zero, I should have told that hero goodbye 
I could never bring myself to that, but maybe now the time has come  
7.Blessing
May the winds bring thunder and
May the rains not take us under
And the wolf not come up after
Any child who’s full of laughter
And may they live
To grow and to give
All their people
Nothing evil
Nothing but gladness
To soften what sadness
Comes in winter or
When life is bitter
May the darkness bring slumber
And may our days not lead to hunger
The sea is warm. The sea is raging.
We aren’t formed, but we are aging.
Yet with more or with less,
We make everyone our guest.
We aren’t naïve.
Some will love, and some deceive.
Yeah, life’s not fair we know,
But aren’t we supposed to block the road
When men come to place the load
Heavy on their shoulders?
8.This is Now
It’s always funny when you go back in time 
The strings won’t tune, and the words won’t rhyme And everything you thought you’d sent away 
It shows back up and it’s got something to say  
You can look at the sights; You can touch and taste But they focused lights and the set’s in place 
They say take a deep breath, and swallow your soul. 
And don’t get cute. We all know your role.  
But even if it’s only in my mind 
I’m not gonna be that person this time 
And even if it’s only in my heart, 
This is not gonna tear me apart 
Cause I don’t care how familiar it feels 
Time travel isn’t real.
This is now, and I am me.  
It’s always sunny in a certain field 
The rain never comes, but the crops still yield 
I know you think that’s a bald-faced lie 
But sometimes I wish that you’d just stop by  
Cause you can look at the sights. 
You can touch and taste. 
Go on. Have a look around the place. 
Feel free to grab a stalk of sugar cane. 
Make yourself at home. No one needs you to explain
9.Over the Snow
We looked out over the snow 
There’s never enough don’t you know 
So we take what we want 
And then we go  
Every child dreams alone 
The lords of the earth 
Want them to take note 
Yeah they’re free to climb high 
Free to fall low  
There is nothing there is nothing 
There is nothing we don’t want 
We may want for nothing  
But there’s always something 
Always something we will hunt   
The finest man in the finest clothes 
Can break into pieces, that’s the way that goes 
You can stand on principle or you’ll stand on men’s heads, 
Too scared to take back what you said  
One dark night  
You might hear the sound 
Of a wandering thought 
That says you can keep all you’ve found 
And that you’re invincible cause you dug in the ground  
For gold  
There is nothing there is nothing 
There is nothing we don’t want 
We may want for nothing  
But there’s always something 
Always something out in front 
10.Half of My Time
I’ve spent half of my time  
Tilting at windmills 
Baking up pies, making up lies 
Gaping like regular people do over the freaks at the fair  
And half of my time  
Pounding on all those 
Who wouldn’t go forward, now, don’t tell me your word’s  
Any better than Absalom’s, taken in war by the tangles of his flowing hair  
O, Absalom, Absalom, son of my heart, 
Your foolishness went out and tore you apart 
Like lions who lounge in the blood of their prey Your pride was roaring, and you were carried away and  
By now, I just figured I’d have perished in battle, 
My armor was thin, my feet barely shod 
My hands, both too bloody, were tried and found wanting, Unworthy to lay even one brick for the house of my God  
Oh, we all want what we want at all times in all ways 
Oh, how can we count the unnamable number of 
All of our days. 
Oh, we’re fighting that clock 
That’s ticking with whatever’s left of our prime 
Oh, imagine that you had to do what you do with just half of the time. 
I’ve spent half of my time chasing the white whale While sunsets and dumb bets get what everything young gets– 
Half the attention they really deserve to receive.  
That’s half of my time sipping elixirs, mingling with fixers,  
Missing the birth of my children. 
And still, when I try, 
In my mind’s eye, to see it, it’s something that I can’t conceive.  
Your mother once told me that when you were born, She passed out from losing so much of her blood While the midwives were stirring and frantically panicking 
She saw you there in a field full of mud  
She ran up to greet you, to finally meet you 
You were already swaddled in a wild waiting game A crown on your head, she was halfway to dead 
By the time you first heard her lips whisper your name   
Open your eyes, start counting the stars 
They’re just past the bars they put on your window, The ones meant to tell you they need to jail cell you, 
When they don’t know what you’re even in for.  
Vanity, Vanity. All this is vanity. 
So says the teacher with wives by the score, 
Who still can recall when his father had fallen 
And sobbed the dead brother’s name to the floor and  
And every child knows it, the spirit that chose it 
Has hidden a secret down deep in their heart 
And no one can figure out how to lure it out 
Except the soul where… it first washed ashore  
Everything sung and played by Don & Lori Chaffer except: Ruby Chaffer sang on “Know Your Name,” “One O’Clock,” & “Blessing;” and Todd Bragg played drums on “This is Now” & “Already Gone.” All songs © 2020 Hey Ruth music (ASCAP) by: +Don Chaffer or °Lori Chaffer or ◊Don & Lori Chaffer.
We'd like to thank the following people for their generosity: Russ Long for the mics & mixing advice, Wayne Kirkpatrick for the instruments, Pete Peterson for help with the book, Todd Bragg for the drumming, Helen Vaskevitch for all she's done these past few years, Creative Arts Initiative and the CAI donors for their assistance, the DCPI folks for three wonderful years (Jeremie Kubicek, Chris Herschend, John Mathena, and Kevin Bailey), Miles & Ruby for putting up with us when we make albums, and all our Kickstarter supporters, who made this whole thing possible.
produced & recorded by Don & Lori Chaffer
mixed by Don Chaffer mastered by Jim Demain
 
      